Scared Lifeless - Saturday November 27, 2010

Woke up at 2 in the afternoon after a long long sleep. It felt like I was hibernating and boy I was up and ready to take on math. Math class was 2 hours long and I was fine and learning like a good boy. Then I became a bad boy and things got pretty bad.

After my tutor, I went to some friend's birthday party and we were playing bomberman and some super smash bro brawl on the wii. It was fine and then things started getting bad. The host brought out the drinks and everyone starting drinking. One person was already done in like 10 minutes into drinking. He was falling off the sofa, couldn't walk straight and boy he looked dead. We told him to stop drinking yet he continued. Then he barfed onto the sofa and we were leading him to the washroom for him to puke some more but he couldn't make it and fell down at the room beside the washroom. We couldn't stop him after that and he just kept puking, the floor was like completely wet with puke and we just couldn't get him up. There he lay, lying face flat on the floor with the puke on him and it soaked into his clothes. It was a nasty sight and he was like that for over an hour. Once in a while, he continued puking some more until a big big puddle came.

Another just kept drinking and drinking and he got really really red. He just kept randomly laughing and was not as bad as the one before but he was done too. Others were just red and doing stupid stuff. Then there were the ones that went to go "bun" and "smoke". They got pretty high too.

I remember one was like saying where is the time while looking at his wrist, but there was no watch at all. Another had slipped on the ground and was like why is there water there when obviously there was not. It was just a bad sight.

Then suddenly, the guy who was puking said he needed to call an ambulance because he was gonna die and was telling us to bring a phone. We were reluctant because we were not supposed to be drinking at all. So we hid the phone but afterwards, we found out he had his cell with him and boy we all got scared. Me and a few others dipped right after hearing it and we even took the stairs instead of the elevator. When we were downstairs, there was a police car outside and we were scared lifeless. I ran home after that and I am still scared.

Why did I ever do this to myself. I am such a bad boy. Learned a big lesson and guess I deserved this. At the party, there was smirnoff and beer and some apple cider thing and boy I don't really like the taste of it. It just tasted like medicine to me, there is nothing wrong with it but just the taste. I can't take the taste and so I only drank like 3-4 to cups? not much compared to others who finished like half a bottle. Others were chugging it. Therefore, I was conscious while others were like passing out. I was lucky to react quickly and avoid this disaster. enough said, I was scared sh*tless

First day of absence - Thursday November 25, 2010

Sigh, I didn't feel well today and so I slept for the whole day. It wasn't fun and it was somewhat painful since my bleeding didn't stop at all.

So yea, skipped the whole day of school today. Felt like such a bad kid but oh well, it was necessary for me to re cooperate from this big incident I guess.

Wisdom Tooth Incident - Wednesday November 24, 2010

Today school was boring as usual and things started to go downwards when I went to the dentist. First off, I was expecting to lose the last two of my wisdom teeth however my dentist said it was too much work and decided to do only one. I remember the sight of him sticking that needle on my gums and that sharp pain and he squeezed the liquid into my gums. Then he continually did it for three more spots so I had like four needle holes just for one wisdom tooth. Then slowly, the right lower part of my mouth became numb and then soon, my right part of my tongue, then my lips and finally half my face was numb. Then he started the operation. Apparently, my wisdom tooth was growing sideways which would prove to be a little difficult. However he was able to perform it with success and I stared through the lens of his glasses as a big pool of blood was spilling out as he took out my wisdom tooth. Then he said that he had to sew it back because my wound was slightly larger than normal. The line that was used to sew my wound would dissolve in a few days so I do not have to go back to him to take out the string.

I returned home, with my tooth bleeding like crazy and using up lots of dressings to suck out the blood. I was really tired and slept a lot that day.

Gahhh - Friday November 12, 2010

Woke up extra early today, earlier than my parents. 6:00am I was out of bed, first time I actually woke up this early. Everywhere was pitch dark and I had to bike in the dark as well. I usually wake up at around 8:20 ish which is a pretty big difference. Even some of my teachers were surprised that I was at school this early.

After that, finally I decided to have the courage to go up and talk to someone and boy I felt so good afterwards. I'm so happy just to talk to this person and yea... filled with happiness!!!

Then got home and went to Boston Pizza and ate a Super Perogi and boy it was so spicy. It tasted so good though even though half the time my tongue was burning.

Yea then big news happened. I don't really know what to do now. Time will tell I guess.

Preparation for Braces - Monday November 8, 2010

Yea... guess the inevitable happens sometimes. but before I talk about this. I studied all night for my IDC test (Financial Securities) slept for only 3 hours and did my test with like my eyes about to close every second while my fingers were shaking like crazy. Why do I tense up when I write tests, its as if my life depends on it and if I mess up its the end of the world. After the test, I could not keep awake, practically fell asleep in my math class. Teacher was asking me "what's wrong" I said, I stayed up all night to do what test. She asked, for what subjest, I was lost by then. Someone took advantage of me while sleeping and decided to write chinese on my arm and it doesn't seem to wash off no matter how much soap I use.

After school, I went to my dentist and took a foam shaping of my teeth. Apparently, I would have to lose 4 teeth for my braces and in addition with my 4 wisdom teeth. I would lose 8. My mouth would feel so empty without those teeth. While giving me the hardening things, the nurse asked me what flavour I wanted. I was like there are FLAVOURS TO IT!? Strawberry or Mint. Sure enough, I chose strawberry. Next question I asked her was, can I eat this? and she was like No. So uh what's the flavour for? its for your tongue. yea... me asking stupid questions but I just couldnt stop myself.

P.S. I really want an Itouch

To Save A Life - Friday November 5, 2010

Stayed up all night to study for my test which took a long time and when it came to test time, I was a complete failure. You know when you go to a test with your mind filled with all that information and when you are finally given the test, you suddenly become blank. I was frustrated and panicking so badly. One of the questions was name the 8 countries of the G8. I remembered vividly of skimming that page with the names of all G8 countries. When I listed the countries out, I could only remember 7 and not the last one. I was deducing whether it was Sweden, Norway or Belgium but they were all wrong, it was Japan. Guess I lost a mark from there.

After school, went to a friends house to play StarCraft II and boy it was cool. The graphics looks so awesome and boy there was so much new things. I sucked though but still, it was fun watching him own with Protoss. I must say, it is completely different from StarCraft I and a lot better? I guess. Then we went to work-out and boy I felt so weak then. My arms were tired after fooling around in the fitness room, playing with the weights, etc.

Then Fellowship happened. We watched an awesome movie. To Save a Life. It was like the most inspiring movie I have ever watched, brought me the feeling that I should follow his footsteps because many people are like this in the world, all alone, unwanted and invisible. It just makes me depressed when I go into their shoes and I guess it has changed me somewhat.

Doctor - Monday November 1, 2010

Yea, got back my Econ test. Got 46.5/50 which is a 93. Apparently, I am 2nd in my class, someone had gotten 47/50 so I was somewhat disappointed. Lost a few marks due to careless mistakes and boy, I got a lil mad at myself. Some girl got mad at me because I beat her, she got 91% and was QQing at me. Which was pretty sad, I must say.....

Also, I got to say, my foot really really hurts, been limping in the school. When I walk up the stairs I have to jump with only one foot up each flight of stairs. Its a pain in the bum and my leg still hurts. I must go see the doctor soon.

Went to see a child doctor afterschool somewhere closeby and guess what I was there from 3:45pm and came back out at 6:0pm. I waited literally 2 hours for this doctor to look at me and it took like 5 minutes. I really hate when that happens. Kids were all over the place, some crying, others were running around like puppies on the loose. They would not place their bums on the seats and do something that is quiet and choose to annoy me. I could not seem to concentrate and boy, was I mad.....