Some people in this world are ridiculous - September 27, 2010

(I dont look forward to math tests)

Basically, today I just posted this on my facebook status:
"How could I get only ... 33.5/35 on a test... and some dude got pity marks from the teacher... what is this..... Life sure if unfair"

Then this girl comments on my posts how I should not brag about my mark and that some people were sad about their marks which were lower than mine.

Then my friend says: "if you're chinese, its not bragging unless you get pefect in math"

She replies and says: "Are you implying that chinese people have superior knowledge in math than every other race? Or are you implying that they have no life? Or both? F**king Racist. Everyone can get 100 in math maybe you two just like to brag to the whole f**king world. Learn to be humble."

He replies: "no i was saying that chinese people place high expectations on themselves in math... and when did I say I liked to brag?"

She says: "Everyone has expectation for themselves to some degree. Shut up with your stereotyping. This Status better be deleted by tomorrow. "

Another one of my friend says: "Ben's point is perfectly valid. It is in the Chinese culture to be hard working (I did not imply that others are not, if you did, you're at fault), and to strive for the best. The chinese culture as a whole has always been unsatisfied with ...that they have. If they learned to be satisfied, they wouldn't fight all of the wars within their own borders. If Stephen truly believes that it is a bad mark, then the constitution provides him rights to sulk about it. Freedom of speech. And since he's not infringing on your rights, there's nothing you can do about it. On the other hand, your freedom of speech rights are not protected from what you said, as the freedom from harassment right is above freedom of speech, so if you were to truly pursue "right/wrong" judgement, you're in the wrong."

She replies: "Funnny. Took you long enough to write that eh? Lifeless f**ks(dont wanna include swear words in my blog). Get a f**king life. He's complaining about test which he got 96%. my friends and classmates are actually f**king upset about their results. Aside from all those fancy "legal terms" think f**king morally. If a guy who got 96% on his test fucking rubs in everyone's face how would you fucking feel?both in class and out of class? It's a f**king supermodel complaining to an obese girl how fat she is. Sure he has "freedom of rights" what's he gonna do? Sue me for violating his rights? Good luck with that. F**ktards "

This guy replies back: In everyone's face? Either you went on his page, or you've visited his page enough that he shows up on your news feed. What are you going to do when you hear someone who is worth 50 million whine that they lose half their net worth? You can always choose to ignore it. If any Hobo had your point of view, they would mug you just because you have a fucking iPod. Or when you complain that you're broke when you only have $20 left, but wear $200 on your body."

Boy there was a big and hot battle between these people about freedom of rights when I was just saying what was on my mind. I was just pizzed off that I did not really do well on my math test. It was a really easy test.

Fail Cooking - September 25, 2010

Today was still University Fair weekend. My plan for the University Fair was, I would gather general information of the universities on Friday and then do some research at home. On Saturday, I would go again to ask specific questions. While I was sleeping somehow I was thinking and I had already decided not to go today because firstly, I was so tired. Secondly, there was only 4 universities that I was interested: Queen's Commerce, York Schulich, Western Richard Ivey and Waterloo Co-op program. I don't really know why I didnt want to go to U of T Rotman or Laurier. Just no reason at all I guess.
So I woke up at around 12 to leave to a Transition to University session. It was very informative and was a definite benefit to preparing me for my 1st year of university and what I would have to look out for. However the people that talked about their own program was computer technician from Waterloo Co-op, an elementary school teacher doing a concurrent teaching program at U of T, an asian culture professor doing Phd at U of T, an engineer from somewhere and basically no one talked about business which was somewhat of a disappointment.
After that, I went to a birthday party which was all guyz. Not much fun, just video games and non-stop eating. We ate like 2 whole pizzas and emptied a bag of chips, 3 cans of pop and were searching through the b-day boy's fridge until we came upon a moon cake. We were reluctant to eat it. However we found a big box of instant noodles. Someone decided to cook 4 instant noodle packages in one bowl which was a total fail. The noodles were sticking out when it should be in water and after cooking it. The guy had poured out all the soup and the noodles were just dry and tasteless. That was so fail..... and we had to cook more instant noodles because it was so bad.
After that, some guyz decided to do something that was very inappropriate. I shouldn't talk about this here.

University Fair - September 24, 2010

Today, I was going to wake up at 8:07 but I slammed my alarm clock off. When I finally woke up, it was 8:47. I had 3 minutes to get school which was literally impossible. I had to shower, brush my teeth, eat breakfast, prepare lunch, pack my backpack and bike to school. In total, it took me only 15 minutes and I arrived to school at 9:00. Pretty good I suppose. I decided to go for only 2 classes because during lunch, I would leave for university fair. Although our guidance counsellors suggested us not to go because it was for those students that were not from the GTA. However I thought to myself, if I don't go today, its gonna be definitely busy during the weekends because all the schools will be off and everyone will be rushing to university fair. However during lunch, my surname got called up for the photos for my SAC/TTC card. Me and my friend who had almost the same last name waited in a long line-up and we were able to cut the line as we got card for our photo before the rest. It saved quite a lot of time and in like 10 minutes we were done, which would have took at least 20-30 minutes. Then I was off to University Fair. I thought I had arrived when I was at the skywalk and saw tons of universities, such as University of Alberta, Manitoba, etc. but I was wrong because many of the main universities required a little more walking to arrive.
When I arrived at the Metro Convention Centre, there was a big line-up for security check which went by pretty fast. When I was inside, there was like tons of students, you can barely walk fast before you bump into the person in front of you.

As I arrived at the big room which held all 21 universities, I was awed by the amount of people. I checked Schulich York, Richard Ivey Western, Math Waterloo, Queens Commerce and that was about it. I got bored pretty fast and my shoulders hurt from walking so much. I found out that I ain't much of a walker. Other than that I was pretty bored.

The next thing I realized, if today was this busy, no doubtedly it would be even more busy on the weekends. It was good of me to skip part of my school to go!!!

Dont feel Good - September 21, 2010

Today, received my first assignment back. I got a fail mark, 7/8 ... so fail that I was mad at the teacher for the whole day as with the rest of my class. Few had gotten perfect and unfortunately, I was not one of them. Basically for this assignment, we had to summarize an article in 3-5 sentences and comment on it in 2-3 sentences. I had summarized it in 5 sentences which he had said was the magic number for this assignment. However I did not get full marks because apparently, I didnt fulfill one of his specific requirements of having that particular detail from the article inside my summary. like what the eff yo, you cant just deduct 17% of my mark for that. Many others were mad at him for the same thing but for other reasons as well. Some of them got like 5/8 because they wrote too much and others wrote too little. This teacher is so picky, I must be more careful next time if I want to do well in this course.

Guess what, I got perfect for my math quiz. Yesterday, I was so scared that I bombed it and it turns out all my worries were for nothing. I did what I had to and got full marks for it.

Life feels so sad. - Monday, September 20, 2010

This day will remain as one of the few most important memories because things that shouldnt have happened, happened. These things were never my decision in the first place or did I desire it to end this way. It just happened and no matter what I do, it cannot reappear again as they way it used to be. I really wonder.. why must this happen to me... but I guess that's life and everything must move on. Although I am reluctant to, I will not forget about this day though. For it will remain in the deepest part of my heart and be locked away inside my brain forever.
Not only did one bad thing happened, but a second one. While, I was doing my math quiz, I felt like I bombed it because once I received the paper, my whole brain went blank. I was freaking out.

Hate this..

I hate it when you gotta work for long periods of time. Just today, I worked like a madman on math. I can't believe I will be like this for a whole year. I wanna go back to the moments where I could fool around, play video games and sleep all I want. Now, its a whole different lifestyle. Just because its the transition to university. Marks are important and so is extra-curricular activities. However if you don't get about 90% u get cut-off, so its how you balance both your academic and your activities. For me, my grades were never that good and so I must work extra hard for this 90% ...
Really really hate just working on and on and on. Every minute feels like an hour and by the time its dark, my head is so tired.

Starting to wonder why I took Af+Calc

As I continued on working ahead on my Advanced Function textbook. I found questions harder and harder with the addition of my tutor homework which was like an add-on to my school-work. The reason why I took a tutor at STS(Success Tutorial School) was because I know my math was not that good even though I have like 90+ for Gr. 11 Math. Gr 11 Math and Gr 12 Math is a different story.. completely two different levels of math. I am pretty worried how I can do well in this course now. Af+Calc is a semestered course so we have only 20 weeks to finish Advanced Function and another 20 weeks to finish Calculus. In those 20 weeks, we need to finish 8 units which means 2.5 weeks/unit. Within the units, there are 5 subsections. The course material will be taught so fast... and I am quite worried about this. What if I can't catch up? What if I fail? (me thinking too much again)