Night before the Test - Tuesday March 1, 2011

Its already March. That is very surprising to me because in 3 months I will either be going into university or I will be staying for grade 13. Right now, I have so much things to do, my university applications, my day school work, my night school work, my online school work, my extra curriculars and lastly my relationship. I feel so lonely, yet I don't have the time to do anything about it.

Also I'm looking forward to march break because then I can finally rest and regenerate and think about the steps I should take.

I have a calculus test tomorrow yet I haven't started studying because I'm too busy finishing up the rest of my homework. To be honest, I don't really know why I am working so hard. I have 3 university marks in:

Advanced Function 94

Earth and Space Science 97

English 84

Calculus ???

The rest are around 90s.

So basically with these 4 courses which are a requirement for university for the top 6, I will only need 2 courses left. However I am taking 6 courses right now which are Financial Securities, Economics, Accounting, International Business, International Law, World Issues. I am worried and so I have dived myself into all this work to hide away from all this unhappiness, to forget about it and just work hard and hopefully be successful.

I had decided to drink because of this, because I am unsure of myself. I swear on my life, that I will not go overboard and do drugs or smoke because that is just ruidiculous.