Failure

I ask myself this many times before and yet again, I ask myself this. Why am I such a failure. WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE....?? WHY WHY WHY. Although I shouldn't feel like this, but sometimes, I cannot stop feeling how jealous I am of other people. I really gotta stop this foolishness RIGHT NOW and get down to business.
SO I took my daily dose of 1 and a half hour nap but it didn't help much. I know you might be thinking sleeping for like an hour is after school is over is not healthy but I just can't function after working up late last night finishing my homework. Supposedly, I should only sleep for 15-20 minutes because that is known as a light sleep and would give u an energy boost to help you keep going for the night. If you sleep for more than that amount, you will fall into a deep sleep and you should not interrupt it. When I sleep for 15-20 minutes, it just feels like a minute had just passed after I wake up. Weird feeling but when I look at the clock, I am surprised that 20 minutes had gone by and it feels like I had wasted it on my sleep. Because after waking up, I feel no difference, I feel as sleepy as before and what's more, I have to finish my work.
After my sleep, I decided to go to fellowship. I haven't been there for quite awhile and my teacher was a little worried. Today was apparently, our church's 40th anniversary and we had a guest speaker from Richmond Church. He was a pretty good speaker, not like those speakers that you fall asleep on but someone that I could connect with and understand properly. At first, he talked a bit about himself and how in his school years they still had OAC. I don't really know what OAC is but he said they needed 6 OAC marks to graduate. He decided to take the "Asian 6-pack" and had 5 OAC because he had failed one. Then he talked about the process of him applying to the universities. The first one he applied for was Waterloo and he was rejected. The second one was U of T and boom he was rejected once again. The third was York and when he was handing in his marks, the people had calculated his marks on a calculator. His marks were really low but he was still accepted. The guest speaker commented, "That was how bad the university is". No wonder York University has bad reputation. After hearing his experience he had fortified perception of York.
A good example of the pastor's pounding the gospel into our heads is about a vending machine experience that he had. Before I continue, he really liked sour cream and bacon chips and I do too. I guess we have the same taste. But moving on, he had put in his coins to buy the chips but it had gotten stuck. The first thing that you would do would be to shake the darn vending machine because you are angry that it had cheated your money. You might also be pounding on it so that bag of chip would fall down to its rightful place, your hands. This is just like how pastor's try to nail the gospel, the idea of Jesus into your head.
Another example is when you insert your coin into the vending machine, sometimes it gets stuck and you don't get your chip bag. In the case of the gospel, the gospel coin would be inserted into the machine and it is the job of the pastor to try and get that gospel coin down to its rightful place.

I hope you understand what I am trying to say because frankly, I learned quite a lot from this dude and it would really be great to have him back. I doubt that would happen though.