Parties at Western - Friday September 23, 2011

Already... we have our parties starting in Western. This one, which was apparently not organized by our sophs or just Western in general... basically one that was planned by the students was having this party where people had to dress as little clothes as possible. Pretty jokes when I saw how my floor was so enthusiastic about it. One person in particular actually had no clothes except for a viking hat that was stuck to his groin and a paper that covered his butt. It was just hilarious when I saw it. Others just uhhh ya know has little clothes but were not as serious as him. So we went to visit other floors but boy, they were surprised at our viking boy who was the man of the show! As we got lower and lower to the floors below, the music starting booming and there were more people gathered. It was just a total mess in the staircase, with beer cans, spilled drinks, leftover food, etc all over the place. But that wasn't all, some of the floors had to have guards in front of their doors to prevent any damages to their floor because people go crazy when they are drunk! Apparently, some incident happened, though I don't know the exact details of what, but RA's were called to control the situation because it got out of hand on this particular floor. I am actually so glad I am on the quiet floor and the very top floor where no one would dare come up so many flights of stairs to bother us. Plus, we dont hear any of the loud music so I can get some good sleep!!!

I feel so Dead - Tuesday September 20, 2011

Today.... I woke up to the feeling of achingness because just yesterday, my sister took me to a dragonboat practice and although it wasn't that intense of a training... I had to go back to the recreation centre in the rainpour because I was gonna go play badminton with my friend. I was dripping wet when I came in but people interpreted me as sweating like a pig, which I was not. I was just super wet because of the rain. Then after our short badminton game, we rushed back in the rain again to arrive back in time for a surprise party for two of our floormates. It was pretty awesome how we surprised them and I was glad I took part in planning it.

Fraternity - Tuesday July 13, 2011

Another beginning of a week of hardcore university classes. I feel exhausted and it has only been the second week of university? It's gonna be really tough for me to keep this rate up especially with my lack of sleep right now. Anyways, I will try to find some way to manage my time between academics and extra-curriculars.... somehow. So today, my roomie talked to me about this fraternity thing he saw at the information booths on the campus. It was tonight at 10:00 and it was in London downtown, not in Western campus which equals something very suspicious. So we took the bus down and arrived at the doors at 9:45 but the party didn't start. I didn't even know it was a party until I went inside and heard the loud DJ music blasting inside the rooms. But inside, it was a whole different story, it was all men or for them, bro's. I was just speechless because it was just my very first time going! They had this swimwear theme and all the guys were wearing swimwear and apparently, girls were gonna arrive.. in their swimwear as well. How joyful would that be, and best of all, they got a big can of keg. I laughed when they tried opening the keg which resulted in the juice blasting out because it was pressurized. Inside was tons of beer and there were vodka elsewhere. Also, inside there was a table that was giving free samples of some energy drink similar to redbull. It wasn't too bad I guess. I didn't drink any beer tho.

O-Week Day 2 - Wednesday September 7, 2011

(Awesome movie)

Another early wake up call, followed by the sound of the alarms woke us up really fast. Today was our faculty meeting and we got to meet our Social Sci Faculty, one of the biggest faculties in Western. There were a few rotations to split up the big numbers and fit us in the classrooms. Inside, they talked more about charities and one of them even gave a touching presentation of someone he knew very dearly, had contracted cancer. It was certainly a crying moment when he finished and I could see the tears that were gathering up on his eyelids. This encouraged a lot of donaters, aka making money off us uni students but guess what, its all for CHARITY so its alright I guess.

Lunch was near, but I could not go because I had the MOSSA meeting to join. In the end, we returned to our rally with empty stomaches and had to sit through a 4 hour rally. We learned some Social Sci cheers and they made a SUPER FROSH TALENT SHOW, where froshies could show off any hidden talents that they had. It was honestly spectacular, with a barely immigrated chinese girl singing an English song really well, a Romeo and Juliet monologue, someone who could shrink their ears (it's actually true and I could not believe my eyes when I saw it) and someone dancing to the music of Tron Legacy. If it hadn't been my stomach growling the whole time, I would have had a great time watching it.

O-Week Day 1 - Tuesday September 6, 2011

(Wish that could happen to me!)

Today, it was the first day when our soph's decide to wake us up early with a loud and very loud morning call by knocking our doors, yelling, screaming, using a horn, almost everything they can possibly do to try and wake us up. It took awhile before many of us could pick ourselves out of bed and go down to eat breakfast. However there was one girl who was not able to wake-up even with all the racket. We went down to practice our SAUGEEN cheers and into a Dating Show. Basically, it explained to us how guys given the circumstances, would move-in and kiss a girl if they think the girl makes a move, even when its only having a hand on their leg. Logically speaking and from a guy's standpoint, it seems right but from the third-person's view, its just total beeswhack when you think it over again. So, body language is not the way to go to determine if the girl wants a kiss or not. In the end, our speaker told us to always ask because if your not comfortable asking, then your not ready to take the action. There was this scenario which I really loved. It starts off with the guy and girl having a great time and enjoying their date. It's nighttime and it's all quiet. The guy wants to kiss her and says, "Hey, it was a great night and I really enjoyed it! May I give you a kiss?" The girl rejects with a "No". Although the guy is disappointed, he replies "I'm glad I had asked because I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable." That totally deserved an 'awww' moment. That just about wraps up our Dating Show. Lunch was on its way and after that, we had to practice our cheer numerous times before we went into the welcoming ceremony where we shouted our cheers. It was just like a normal welcoming ceremony, nothing special except that they made it so each rez and faculty could present their cheers. There was a hypnotist and I had a great laugh from it. Then there was a dance but I ditched and went downtown to get some dinner.

Move-in To Western - Monday September 5, 2011

My parents can blame me for my stupidity because I had got my move-in day wrong and I had thought it was on Sunday. So I had finished packign everything at Saturday and was ready to leave when I checked on the internet and later found out it was Monday. Got a long and hard scolding from those asian parents, haha. So today was the day to move-in to my new residence, Saugeen (known as the party rez!). It began my hectic life as I took my first step into the building. Inside, we got our o-week kits and other items, necklace, t-shirts, wristband, etc. Then we took a look in our room and unpacked. At first, I had thought I had brought too much stuff but after glancing around, I had pretty little compared to the rest. Then we had our lunch and walked around campus to look at the computer store, pharmacy, book store. After that, we had our floor meeting where we got to know our floor and watched a football game against Waterloo in a very cold and chilly weather. We annihlated them with 31-0 in the first quarter and I was too cold to see the rest.

At night, there was this Limbo dance where people dance and write on each others shirt. It got wild and apparently, one of the girls took off their shirts and started dancing in her underwear.... LOL

I had missed the night dance because I was way too tired from the carride and I still had some jet lag in me.

(My Rez)

Part of My Shang Hai Trip

Shang Hai Trip Day 1 – Tuesday August 21, 2011

It only took a 2 hour flight from Hong Kong to Shang Hai. But within that 2 hours, we were provided with a delicious dinner. The part where it was so amazing was that one of my relatives who sat beside me on our flight was vegetarian and didn’t eat dinner. She only eats two meals a day and skips dinner so I was given an extra dinner to solve my stomach problems. When we arrived at Pu Dong Airport (not too clear about the name) it was 9:00PM. We retrieved our luggages and was about to take the subway to our hotel. However it turns out that the airport subway closed at 9:00PM. Our only alternative was to take the bus which we had no clue as to what stop to get off at. We tried our best with our limited resources to get a better picture of how to get as close to our hotel as possible. We used GPS, our cellphones and our labtops to find a general location of where we are. Thankfully our busstop was right next to the our supposed subway stop. We hitched a short ride on the local subway before we got off at our stop but the exit closest to our hotel was closed because it closed at 10:00PM which was exactly the time we just arrived. Forced to take the longer route, we ended up losing our location and had to ask people on the streets for directions. Even with the directions, it took us nearly 20 minutes to walk to our hotel with our luggage beside us. It was nearly nightfall when we made it to the hotel so I took a light shower and went to sleep.

Shang Hai Trip Day 2 – Wednesday August 22, 2011

I am writing this today, Thursday August 23, 2011 and I practically forgot what we have done today. All I remembered was the big misleading dinner that we had. However after giving it some more thought, the events of the past came up one by one. We went to Hang Zhou to visit the water village. Nothing that special except there was water surrounding it and it is a water village that has been around for many many years. We had a tour about some different styles of beds, the simple carved vs complicated carved beds meant different dynasties. We boarded a small boat and toured around for a bit and went out for lunch. It was a very cheap lunch where all of us were practically full to the brim with food. Then we went towards West Lake and took a boat towards an island in the middle of West Lake. We only had 45 minutes before the last boat left the island. Then we went for dinner because it was getting late. When we arrived and sat down on the restaurant tables. We were discussing when my uncle noticed that the waiters took away a menu. We looked at the rest of the menu’s and when we asked for a few more copies since we only had two on hand, they said they had only two menus in the entire restaurant. Bear in mind, the restaurant had over 100 tables and we only took up 2 tables while the rest of the place was very empty. We found it very suspicious and asked for the menu that we looked at before but they would not give it back. Apparently, the prices rose and so the old menu which they had taken away was not suitable. We thought we were being cheated and started asking for a set meals because on the menu, it only showed individual meals. They immediately went to work to create three set menu for us. Though it took less than 5 minutes, we were pretty sure they had typed it out because it was on a plain piece of paper. Sad to say, we had no choice but to order from the set menu because we would be causing a hard time for our tour guide if we just took our stuff and left. To our surprise, they gave us a plentiful dinner and it was very worth the price. In the end, we found out we weren’t being cheated but we had misunderstood.

Shang Hai Trip Day 3 – Thursday August 23, 2011

Today, we went to a big Buddha place where there was four big statues. Each statue meant a different direction, north, east, south and west. However each of the statues were missing something, one was missing a sword sheath, another was missing a snake’s tongue, a third was missing the umbrella skeleton while the last was something that I forgot already. Then we went out for 雷峰塔. It was a five story tower and at the very top, we could see the 西湖and many other areas of Hang Zhou. It took a long time walking up towards the tower as well as getting down. We went out for lunch at some restaurant which had no air conditioning. Although the food was plentiful and totally worth the prices, the a/c part was very disheartening. I was so full after eating several plates full of food. Our tour guide took us to a silk museum where we were given instructions on how to differentiate between real and fake silk. The only method was not to look or feel the silk but to burn it. If we were to burn real silk, it would not catch on fire very easily because their boiling point is high. Also, white smoke came out from burning instead of the usual black from cotton. We would have to ask the sales representative to do the burning because from the guide’s saying, we burn, we pay. If they burn, it’s not our problem and we would know that it is fake. After hearing this, they showed us 100% silk-made blankets and blanket covers. It was at a very cheap price and many of my uncles bought one though my family didn’t. That museum tour ended and we went out for free shopping at near the West Lake before we watched a performance. This performance was spectacular, because people were actually performing on a stage on water. It was just amazing at their style of acting such as using yellow and red fish lights, lighted flying birds, and large feathers. That concluded our day.

Shang Hai Trip Day 4 – Friday August 24, 2011

I just found out today but Hang Zhou is actually a different area that’s outside of Shang Hai. Today, we took our last ride with the tour bus and crossed the borders toward Shang Hai. However it took around three hours and twenty minutes before we arrived in the center of Shang Hai. The tour guide described that Shang Hai has two big highways which cross in the middle. In the middle is Shang Hai’s center and it’s basically their downtown area. Besides the highways, there is a ring around the city which makes Shang Hai look like a Chinese word if you glanced from a helicopter view. First, we went to a pearl museum where they taught a lesson on how to differentiate between fake and real pearls. It’s basically rubbing the two pearls together lightly. If it turns rough then its real, however if it’s still smooth then its fake. After that, we had a look at their pearl store but the prices were way too high. Oh yea, for pearls, there are fresh water and saltwater oysters and apparently, the salt water oysters are more expensive. However it is very hard to determine if it’s salt or fresh water. At the end of the pearl tour, each of my family members took a small pearl (not exactly round and it’s pretty small) from a nearby cracked oyster. That was the end of our Shang Hai tour and we returned to our hotel to change because we had a family banquet at night. It was to celebrate the marriage of one of my cousins and I was finally allowed to drink some alcohol though it was poor quality. After drinking half a bottle of red wine mixed with tons of pepsi and 7up, I felt a little bit tipsy but I was totally fine. I was deeply disappointed with the fact that our banquet had no cake but there was a cake on display only. It was pretty late when we returned home but me and my cousins decided to sleep a little bit later since we wanted to get some more alcohol. We each drank a shot at the hotel’s local bar but it was so expensive, around $80. So we went to a convenience store nearby and bought a whole bottle of Smirnoff plus some fanta to fulfill our alcoholic desires. It totaled $90ish which was pretty decent. One thing that I was glad about this night was that I was finally above 18 and legal to drink in CHINA and HONG KONG!!

Unexpected Birthday Party - Thursday August 11, 2011

Its already the last month of summer before my university life begins. Though it feels like time passes by so fast, at my workplace, its a completely different story. I've worked at my workplace, an accounting firm that I had luckily got, for around 1 month and boy, its been a constantly dull, repetitive and no brainer job. But really, I can't expect much with a high school graduate certification. Anyways, it was a paid job so it was all good. All the suffering meant I could have some spending money on my trip to Hong Kong and Shang hai, which by the way is in 4 days time! I honestly have nothing to pack and I have two empty luggages that im gonna bring along my trip.

Whiling working and having the feeling of sleepiness envelope me, I received a sudden phone call from my friend inviting me to a party that started an hour ago. Apparently, he forgot to add me to the mailing list and so I never received an invite to his party until now. At the same time, I received a text about a seller who wanted to meet up to sell his mobile phone. Recently, I needed to get a phone and a plan as I move to London so I desperately needed to find a cheap and durable phone. When I left my workplace, I found out the seller changed his mind and wanted to reschedule our meeting to tomorrow. Disappointed and gloomy, I trekked to the birthday party. It turned out that better than I thought and I had a good laugh. One person in particular actually got drunk from just a bottle of beer. His whole personality changed from his actual self which I had seen at school. He turned all perverted and had such a sick attitude. It was funny as he insulted random people, doing weird gestures and just dancing away.

Night It Up Review Meeting - Saturday July 30, 2011

I had an initial thought of just skipping this meeting because firstly it was so early on a Saturday morning, from 10am - 2pm and usually meetings like these felt boring and disappointing. It turned out pretty awesome but still had some disappointment in it as well. Disappointed because I thought there would be lunch since the meeting went past lunch time. Instead of giving us a lunch break, we weren't even allowed to leave our seats until 3pm, an hour past our planned schedule. Though my stomach felt like it would never see the sight of food again, I was able to hear many of the troubles and unexpected events that I didn't know about for Night It Up! We went through VRT, Marketing, Web, Sales, Sponsorship, Finance, Logistics teams. They all had concerns and voiced out their impressions of the NIU event and the performance of their teams. In VRT, they had a lot of problems because many of the volunteers just slacked off and didn't do their work. The volunteers, usually wearing the blue shirt, we didn't expect much from them but to just finish one simple task properly which didn't happen. It just ended up in the hands of the organizers, in the purple shirts. Seeing that I was an organizer, I experienced first-hand what it feels like to be doing all the dirty work for the event. BUT, I can finally say that I've done this work before and have some bragging rights! I laughed when the VRT director growled that he found volunteers chillin' at a nearby McDonalds while we were working our butts off.

For Marketing, based on their calculations, we had approximately 90,000-10,000 participants throughout our two day event but apparently this estimate was wrong. We had even more supposedly and the vendors who also sold their products at the T&T Waterfront Nightmarket (our rivals/competition) had complained about the poor work environment provided by T&T. One of the vendors quoted, "Even if they gave us a booth for free, I wouldn't go back" I laughed!

For Web, our whole website was run by only one person who updated and set-up our awesome website with over 63,000 views with users staying on the site for around 2 minutes. Next year, I think I'm gonna join Sales because it sounds really fun. There isn't much issues concerning Sales, except that there wasn't enough members to handle the vendors. The rest of the teams, didn't have anything in particular because they weren't important on the day of the event. Except Logistics, there was so many problems. Firstly, seeing that our Logistics director was going to retire, he said that he recommended we hire a consultant because the responsibilities cannot be fulfilled because there was too much planning involved. Poor guy, I kinda felt bad for him because he dedicated so much time for the success of this event. Apparently a whole platoon of police officers showed up and had a talk with him because they were asking why we only hired 2 paid duty officers to take care of all the traffic during the Night Market. Our director was speechless and could only mouth, "umm we didn't expect so much people to come" I laughed so hard then. Then there was the case of the robbery incident during the first night of our nightmarket and we learned a lesson, to make sure we have security when it is closing time.

Then there was the garbage disposal issues, garbage buildup was a common sight and its just a disaster to try and walk with a bag of garbage through a crowded area. Therefore we had to implement a new plan during the second day which was to put the garbage cans on the outskirts of the event so it would ease garbage picking. However it resulted in a massive garbage mountain at the stage equipment area. Juice from pineapple cores dripped into the equipment and it was a sad sight to see it but have no control as people continued to put garbage on it. I feel bad for the stage crew who were in charge of the equipment.

That's about all that I can remember from the long meeting. I really learned a lot and will definitely join NIU again next year!

Night It Up! - Saturday July 16, 2011

What an epic day. Slept at 4AM the previous night but woke up and got to work at 9AM in the morning. I'm surprised I didn't fall asleep as I was showering. Anyways the day started with the blazing hot sun shining on top of us. I remembered to put sunscreen but it was already too late since I had a red Rudolph nose. Sighh now I have to put up with ppl commenting about my nose. Night It Up Round 2, started with very little people but as the time passed, it became a hectic and crowded place of litter, people, and stinky tofu smell. I could not bear the smell of stinky tofu and would avoid it every time I passed. But there was like 3 stinky tofu booths and the always had very long line-ups. Thank god I didn't like it otherwise I would be one of them, waiting in line. The day passed by really slowly because there was a lot of work to be done behind the scenes while others were enjoying the event. I decided to enjoy the event as well since I was an 'organizer' the people who had purple shirts and just walked around looking through all the booths. That took like 5 hours because I could barely walk in the crowd. Anyways after looking through the booths, I found nothing really special except the goldfish booth where u have a piece of paper which is stuck on a circular stick and you try to catch a baby goldfish on it. Although it seems impossible, I saw tons of people catching it with such ease. At night, it was just a disaster because garbage was piling up and it was our responsibilities as Night It Up volunteers to empty the garbage and return it to the garbage receptors. For onlookers, it was an enjoyable sight as volunteers screamed as garbage juice flew on them when they were trying to take out garage. For us, it was just a painful and tough job. After that experience, I will never ever try to be a garbageman again.

At midnight, the stores had to close and there were many many discounted prices of foods and products. However the volunteers had to continue working and were not allowed to go and buy stuff. I, being the typical lazy boy, slipped out so while the purple shirted people ordered the blue shirted volunteers around. I went around looking at deals and spent around $1 on stuff that was on sale for $4-5 before. I enjoyed spicy chicken poutine, korean rice cake, 3 tapioca drinks all for a total of $5. There was ice cream for $2 but I was too late and the booth had closed before I got there. After enjoying that short shopping spree, I had to go back to work acting as if I was working the whole time. It was a long and enduring work even for a strong boy like me. I wonder how the girls were able to put up with all the work. The work consisted of putting away the tables, chairs, picking up garbage, moving the garbage, taking down baricades and cleaning up all sorts of items. It lasted until 4AM until the executive team told us to go home and come back at 9AM again.

I could not work anymore and I slept until 8PM haha. Well-rested mentally but my legs are aching still.

Its so lonely, lonely, lonely... - Thursday July 14, 2011

After watching City Hunter and during one of the scenes, the main character had to sacrifice his love to finish his destiny. Then after, this song which depicted his loneliness played and I felt sympathy and remorse for him.

Suddenly, I realized that my situation is not that far from him and I could somewhat relate to him although its a drama. Seeing others have fun while celebrating birthday parties, watching movies together and just hanging out makes me kinda jealous because I wasn't able to participate. On the other hand, I see the magic of love from couples as they

Inspiration - Thursday July 7, 2011

Suddenly, I have become a drama addict. Welllll to be exact, a korean drama addict. I'm only watching korean because chinese dramas are easy to predict their endings and japanese is just japanese. I dunno but I'm suddenly really attracted to Kdrama. On my first day of watching drama, I had watched 12 straight episodes of my current favourite drama City Hunter. But long before that, I got a little hooked on to another Kdrama, Runaway Plan B however that doesn't really count. Anyways, as I watched City Hunter, it had hit the spot and I couldn't believe I went beserk when the next episodes weren't finished. And so, I searched from blogs to begging friends about any dramas that are similar to City Hunter. I got a big fat 'NO'... I tried, Iris and Sungkyunkwan Scandal but it just couldn't compare to the thrill, excitement, adorable and action-packed drama. And now I have decided to give up on this hunt. Today I found out that the next two episodes just came out and I was just glad to use two hours to finish the next episodes. One thing I really hate about dramas are the cliff-hangers for each episode, which leaves the watcher dying for the next episode. At the same time, I really wanna congratulate them on their efforts at putting the watchers (including me) fidgeting as we desperately wait for the next episodes to come out. Anyways, I'm done with my kdrama rage.

Now back to the original topic on hand. While I was working at my workplace, I was finally able to get to know my co-workers (only 2) better. One of them was an older and retired lady who wanted a stress-free job as a secretary. During our long chat, she told us a lot of success stories which were really inspiring and touched my heart because I felt that I could accomplish the same results as those people. Anyways here goes my storytelling... just be warned that you might fall asleep.

This person who had an IQ of 164 (considered a genius since normal people have 120 generally) was a really smart kid and could predict many things. During school, he would be wearing really weird clothing and people would question his fashion sense. All of his clothes came from Asia and other areas of the world and as we all know, Canada is like 10 years behind other countries in many things including our TTC which I will not comment about that. Anyways, he would reply with: you will see in 2 years time because this will be the new style of dressing and he would always be right. He was also fluent in 5 languages, english, japanese, korean, chinese, thailand which was just amazing and soon he was able to land a good job based on his abilities and the potential that many corporations had found in him. He was sociable and had attracted the King's twin daughters in Arabia. Through his relationship with the daughters, he made many connections which became really useful during the later parts of his career. He had predicted that a golf course and hotel would be really successful in a city within Korea and needed investors to purchase the land. Through his connections from the King's daughters who were really people with a lot of money at their disposal. He was able to close off the deal with their help which became a success. My impression was like: What a LUCKY GUY... but he had the knowledge to back himself up with all that languages.

Another story was about how a korean who attended New York University (NYU). The tuition for NYU was massive with 60-70k per year. While he was in university, a really well-known korean company from Korea was recruiting people and when they saw the NYU University on his resume, they immediately hired him for the summer. During the two months, he earned 75k (enough to pay off tuition and more). His parents have made a really good investment in sending their child to NYU.

A story about the secretary herself was about how she had found a summer job as a data entry clerk like us and was working in a big company. The manager liked her work ethics because the other people who were in their 40's were always chatting and didn't work very efficiently. The manager offered her a position for the summer of her second year. After the second summer, the manager was really impressed and had given her the opportunity to become a finance manager after she graduated from her university.

After hearing all these successful and inspiring stories, I had some thoughts about myself too. I decided to work hard and try and be as successful as them!! which will be my mission!

Start of Another Week - Sunday July 3, 2011

It sure has been an eventful first week of work for me already.

First day: Late to work because I missed my bus

Second day: I fall asleep at my workplace

Third day: My bus actually breaks down so I ended up late again... (what a bummer, it wasn't my fault I guess)

Fourth day: I ask for an early leave already for some workshop

Man... my boss will not be happy with all this, but its all over and I'm pretty well-rested after this weekend. I spent like 97% of my time watching drama especially kdrama because I have a sudden urge to watch it after my friend recommended me to watch one. Now I'm hooked with City Hunter and from Thursday afternoon to Friday night, I had already watched 12 episodes of it. I was so addicted to it because its just such an amazing drama. There were so many emotional and at the end, there would always be this cliff-hanger. I could not stop myself from watching the next episode until I got to episode 12 because this drama was still ongoing and so they have not produced episode 13 yet. So, in order to fill up my drama addiction, i have been trying to find other dramas that can compare to City Hunter. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to find any... but one that is pretty close is IRIS which I'm watching but I'm getting bored though.

2nd day of work - Tuesday June 28, 2011

After the first day of work, I decided to try and sleep early because I was feeling sleepy at work. I slept at 11:30PM and still I woke up with a sleepy mood. I woke up at 7AM with a sore throat. Even after my cold shower, I felt like sleeping just a little bit more. But I couldn’t risk getting into the bed because I might end up waking late and being late to work. I got on the bus and felt like sleeping but I was afraid I might miss my stop as well.

I finally arrived at work and my mood didn’t improve one bit. Tried going through my work but in the end I had to doze off for an hour before I could get back to work. From then on, I plowed through all my work.

My first two fears of the day are: my increasingly large debt from tuition and the dim chances of finding work.

First Day of Continuous Work - Monday June 27, 2011

Finally i got a job that will last for one month rather than my last work experience of only one day from the federal elections. Thank goodness, I was able to find this job otherwise I would have been unemployed and bored out of my mind during the whole summer. Now there is something to keep me busy. The night before my work day I had planned my schedule of getting to work.

I woke up early in the morning to get ready and got out at exactly the right time as planned. The bus was supposed to arrive at 8:02 but when I got to the bus stop at 7:58, I saw my bus leaving. I was like “NO WAY” because I would have to wait 20 minutes for another one. It turns out that the online bus schedule was different from the actual bus schedule. The bus was supposed to leave 7:57 and so I was panicking as I waited 20 minutes for that STUPID BUS. By the time I arrived at my workplace, I was late but not by much because I ran 2 blocks to reduce my lateness. Went inside with sweating like a pig and sweat was dripping everywhere. I was an ugly sight and all this would not have happened if only I had arrived at the bus stop just a few minutes earlier. This will be one thing that I will remember.

At work, my duty entailed typing in data in excel for seven whole hours every day. Within the first 2 hours, I felt so sleepy and almost dozed off. Thank god, my boss was not there because he was at a meeting elsewhere. I wonder how I’m gonna survive another month of this same work everday. Haha.

Graduation of High School - Saturday June 25, 2011

Its already the end of high school and I'm glad that I can move on to something else. Something bigger and better, start new and to have fun without my parents. During the Graduation/Commencement, we had to speak our names and the teacher would read out the university we decided to attend next year as well as any personal comments that we wanted to provide. There were the basic 'Ohhh's and 'Ahh's when the teacher said some State University or some other universities that weren't located in Canada. Some people gave some pretty random comments along with their university like he was gonna be chillin like a boss, I will make my parents proud, etc. I decided to write 'im going to be a big boy' but the teacher didn't pronounce my sentence with a chinese accent which I had wanted it to.

SAO meeting Today - Thursday June 23, 2011

Today was my Western's first Orientation meeting. So, my parents had to drive me 2 hours and a half to travel to London, Ontario to my university. We wanted to arrive between 8:45 and 9:15 because it was free parking and I woke up at around 6:20? So we were pretty late plus we also turned into the wrong street and got a little lost but we still made it in time with 2 minutes to spare before it turned 9:15. The feeling that there was a chance that we could make it as well as a possibility that we will not make it and have to the penalty of paying parking fees. It was a sort of exhilarating and scary feeling.

They welcomed the SAO students with an awesome Western school song which was actually really good... compared to my high school's school song. LOL. Then we went into small groups where we started planning our courses for our first year of university. I had already spent 4 hours yesterday night trying to plan my timetable and failed. This provided time for me to revise my courses as well as ask questions to the university students. Lunch came very soon and then there was a campus tour. Unfortunately, I had to leave my tour early because I had an appointment with my guidance counsellor about my course registration. It turns out that there was a very very very long line-up and we had to wait an hour and twenty minutes before we were able to get inside the room. I was supposed to get there at 1:00PM but I went inside at 2:15PM. But inside, the room, we still had to wait for our turns to talk to the counsellors. Finally it was my turn and I blasted all my questions to her. She was surprised that I was really prepared but I just kept asking questions non-stop and it took a very long time before she got through all my questions. But after that, we still had to register our courses through the internet. Fortunately, there were university students to help us out and also, I had already finished a bunch of my course registrations last night so that process went by pretty quick.

As we were waiting, I talked with friends in the similar programs. One of them was pursuing their career as a neuro surgeon. We exclaimed: "Your aiming really high" and he said he knows. He said that he was amounting to around half a million after finishing his undergrad and his med school and more. Haha, poor kid but my debt would be similar to that but a little less thankfully. Then he talked about how his sister who had a 94.3 avg in high school got a 97% avg in University. Im like "WHAT DA EFFF"!? How da hell is that possible... Anyways she was pursuing a career in dentistry, and apparently their first project was to learn to carve on a piece of soap! Hmm, I should try that someday.

Then he said that if you put two matches together, with a penny below one of them and you light one match, it will carve upwards in the shape of a "u"... thats pretty amazing yet unrealistic in my mind.. Gotta definitely try that out!

Then there was the long car ride back. My parents counted that there was a distance of 200km between London and Toronto. My mom even said that she will never ever drive me to Western again because it was too much work. LOL Guess I have to count on GreyHound from now on...

Im excited for university now and finished with the boring high school life that I led.

University Planning - Monday June 20, 2011

So many things happened today. Firstly, went out to buy new sandals, buy new pair of glasses and much more. Got bored and read a little of Twilight too. I really don't know why they hate the book. Its a book with a romantic story, nothing wrong with that. I understand their reasons for disliking the movie but the book is normal.

University Planning is a bummer. I have no knowledge of my university and any courses and I need to do some hard researching on everything from the courses, my prerequisites for future courses and the conditions to stay in my program. Its all such a pain and confusing especially trying to navigate on the website.

And now, I need to find my courses ASAP, otherwise it will fill up soon.

Such an unbusy day - Saturday June 18, 2011

Is unbusy a word? I guess not but it does convey the meaning so I guess I'm gonna make it my word now. I spent my whole day renewing my experience of video gaming. I completely missed it while I was finish my grade twelve year and finally I can get to forget about all the stress that I have accumulated from the whole school year through my game. Then my brother and I bargained a deal where I would help him write a 20 page essay for $60. I wonder if it was worth it with all the research, reading and all to write this essay. Oh well, I got bribed for the first time and it feels bad. I usually get bribed with food and not money because I'm not that fond of money and I don't exactly revolve around it. Finally finished it and i'm proud of myself!!

Then my brother told me to throw him a loaf of bread because he had to take medicine. The medicine as always is bitter and has this disgusting taste and so he was using the plain bread to cover the taste. So I decided to throw him the loave of bread but he couldn't even catch a loave of bread. Unfortunately, it fell right on his cup of medicine and it spilled on the floor immediately. Guess who had to clean it up? ME... sighhh.. what a pain in the butt.

Selena Gomez is actually so hot!!! IMO

Gr 12 Officially Over - Wednesday June 15, 2011

After my 2 hour long accounting exam, my gr 12 year has come to an end. Hopefully I dont have to repeat this again because I don't have enough credits to get my high school diploma. That would really suck. My teacher asked me why I wasnt in class for the end of the school period and I told her my sleep was more important!! Haha, I bet she laughed!!!

Exams over... Summer has started. Too bad it will be my last high school summer before university!!

Had another large argument with my mom again. She's one person that no matter how I reason with, I won't ever win. Its sad and when usually I just have to listen to her demands and just swallow my anger. Its terrible and its just one reason why Im leaving tdot maybe forever!

So basically, there was this tv show that talked about the transition from children to adolescent, where their hormones are changing and they have more mood swings. The parents should understand that and try to encourage them instead of scolding. My parent didn't even listen to this comment but continues to scold me for everything from working to playing games. When I show her my report card, she says she doesn't believe in the Ontario school system anymore because I get high marks too easy. I am like WTH, I work hard yet you just say this... Great, how am I supposed to prove that I work then? Then she says I dunno. I AM JUST WOW. literally speechless because shes just so darn DUMB. sighh pissed off at her.

Watermelon Maniac - Sunday June 12, 2011

My hair is still up from yesterday though its not as spiky as before. Anyways I was bored and I was looking around my house when I saw a big yummy watermelon lying on the floor. I decided to try something out and to cut it in half and eat half of it with a spoon. I was stuffed after eating half the watermelon with all the juice and meat. All the goodness is inside my stomach now!

First Haircut Ever - Saturday June 11, 2011

Well... ever since I was born, I had to put up with my haircuts from my mom. It was just terrible because they aren't exactly professional haircutters and they just could not cut. But I had to put up with it because it saved us money! And finally I decided that it is time to get a haircut from an actual haircutter!! But the joy didn't last long because the price was a whopping $28... I was scared out of my mind at that moment. But it included washing my hair and conditioning it so I guess it might have been worth it. Just a little.

Anyways I wanted to make my hair spikey because I like my hair to be up instead of just lying flat on my head.

First Exam Obliterated - Thursday June 9, 2011

Haha, I had procrasinated and watched korean drama way too much. Once I find something I like, I won't stop until its finished including drama. Although the exam was looming ahead, I had ignored that fact and continued to watch it until the day before the exam. Then I decided to pull an all-nighter and cram. Thats when I learned my lesson about my stupidity. When I started studying the first few chapters of the textbook, it was alright because I was still conscious and the material was easy. However as I went in depth into the material from reading the later chapters I found that the content was going through my eyes and into my head. But as I kept reading, it just seeped away from my mind and was forgotten. In addition to that, it felt like forever before I finished my studying and by then it was already 6AM. Dawn was arriving before I put a blanket on myself and went to sleep. Woke up in 2 hrs to continue my studying and was mildly prepared for the exam. It was 13 minutes before the exam and I decided to bike to school. On the way, my bike broke down and I had to fix it with my bare hands. In the process, my hands became black from the oil and I couldn't even wash it off. So I was in the exam room and was handed my paper. Excited as I was, I took my time to answer each question with the best of my knowledge but when the teacher said 25 minutes left, I had only finish half of my exam and I had to write 5 pages of essay. I was so screwed then and I learned another lesson, to be aware of the duration of ur exam.

Quote of the day: what is love? how much is it worth? (I am pondering about this in my mind)

Calculus + Vectors Exam OVER - Monday, May 30, 2011

Finally, math is over for me. The math that has haunted my life, the math that has tortured me and the math that has ruined me. It is now over and I hope its over for good! Exam was okay, because I messed up with a few questions. No perfect exam for me. Oh wells, its all good since Im officially done!

After exams, we celebrated with a meal at a korean restaurant named owl of minerva. With cute korean posters and the singers on the tv, it was actually a nice place to eat korean food. I kept eating the cucumbers that came as an appetizer! Asked for 4 plates of cucumbers because it was so good!. Then we found out one of our members had a birthday today and we went out to celebrate with a cake (tiramisu! best cake in the world) but it was small and had to fit 20 candles because she was 20 years old! Then we put whip cream all over each others hair and it got all sticky. Lastly, we even sprayed the leftover on a slide and it seemed like white stuff was rolling down it.!

Prom - Thursday May 26, 2011

Prom day has arrived and it had actually turned out better than I had expected. Although the prom part was not exactly fun, the after prom was really eventful. I didn't spend like hours putting on make-up or even do my hair because its ok to be me! Anyways we had booked a limo (first-time even riding one!) but it came 30 minutes late. Pretty sad. However the limo kinda looked ugly, because it was a ford limo (the truck kind, not the car kind) but inside it was really spacious! There was a device where we could control things in the back of the car, and we tried to open the roof but it wouldn't open, it would only show some sparkly lights and that was all. LAME.

Anyways at prom there were pictures, okay food and dance. Not exactly really interesting for me and I got bored really fast. It was over pretty soon and we were on our way to Mix2 (a karaoke place!) However we were supposed to be there by 11:50 and we were late because we had to take the bus. On our way, we even stopped by Burger King but it was closed since it was around 12 ish. However the drive thru was still open and we pretended to be driving and ordered our meals. Then it started to rain and we dashed into our karaoke place to start our mad singing. Our singing went on till like 3AM and we were hella tired. When we received the receipt, we were shocked LOL because it showed $109 for 5 people. Apparently there is a flat fee that we all have to pay in addition to the original payment. I was sad to wave goodbye to my $20 bill haha. When we were outside, I accidentally stepped on barf and ran mad as hell to a puddle to wash it off. It was SO Disgusting! Then we got a ride from a friend and he drove so fast. He was driving at 120 km/h on a limit of 60 km/h road. Apparently this person had already crashed his previous BMW and is known to drive insanely. Thank god I survived!

Funny TV show - Saturday May, 21, 2011

Sooo, I came back home and my parents decided to switch on the TV to watch some chinese news. Those things are so boring because you can just read the newspaper or something thats more worthwhile. Anyways it wasn't chinese news yet but there was this show called liz and gods anniversary. Basically, its in remembrance of these four peoples contributions to the tvb/ hong kong media. There is one girl and three guys (all three of them are dressed up as woman though), and they do different stunts. Some of them are like changing the lyrics of the songs to something very funny, or changing lyrics of one person yet the lyrics from the second person of the drama still made sense. I was honestly laughing so hard because it was so funny... In the end, I kinda got distracted for like an hour. No biggie!

P.S. This is really really weird but when I drink coffee, I feel really really sleepy. Its not the opposite effect of getting energetic, but my eyes feel like it wants to close and I feel like I want to nap. Weird....

F***K YOU - Thursday May 19, 2011

Honestly why was I even born into this family. Why did I even bother living this life. Of all the families in the world, why must I live in this one?

I was working on my summatives and I really wanted to concentrate on it but my parents just keep talking and talking. I tell them to quiet down because I need to work but they say, ur not even working. Ur copying other people's work or something like cheating. Do you honestly think cheating will work in life, do you think I have never thought about this? Do you think I am that dumb to not think through things properly? Why do you always say this when you know its just gonna make ur child pissed off? Is this your way of getting me to work again because if any child heard their parents say that, it just makes them want to smash a book at their face. Of course I won't do that because its disrespectful and so I can only fume here. They have so much lack of respect here and its just so screwed up in this family. Then they go on to say some others crap in my face like university acceptance. I didn't get an offer and they laugh and say that its because I copy too much and when it came to having to write on your own for university admission, you would just fail. Holy shit, all you can do is just badmouth me, what about all the hardwork I put into my work, do u not even consider that?

Then there is the thing about OSAP. Earlier before around a month ago, they kept telling me to apply to OSAP now before its too late and they kept saying how some of their co-worker's children have applied to OSAP now. They kept bugging me for weeks and you know how parents are, if you dont go their way, they will only bug you until you listen. So I just applied to OSAP to shut them up but at that time I didn't make my choices and so I wasn't sure as to which university I should apply for OSAP for. My parents just said, apply to all your choices and I did. Then my school had this OSAP meeting (but I had already applied long before knowing this), and I found out you were supposed to only apply to OSAP when you have made your chioce. So now, I need to do all this work to undo all my other applications because I was only supposed to send in one application to only one of my university. Great work parents, you just got me into so much unnecessary trouble.

What a fool - Sunday May 15, 2011

So Im stuck at home doing my math. Then my stomach growls and I want food but Im not a good cook so I wait until my parents come home hoping that they would bring some food. Luckily, they brought home two boxes of food and I was so excited at the sight of food, especially something that is different from my parent's cooking because its just awful. Haha, maybe because I got used to it, or I just don't like their cooking style at all, too asian. So they bring back two boxes of food and two bowl of soup. I ask my parents what is it and they tell me one is onion-flavoured rice and the other is curry. So I opened one of the boxes to find out its ketchup flavored rice and it wasn't the onion-flavoured rice. I was immediately filled with disappointment. I assumed that the other box was the curry flavoured so I went ahead and chomped away at the ketchup flavoured rice. Then my parents open up the other box to find that its my favourite onion-flavoured rice. By that time, I had finished three quarters of box of rice and I was so full. I will never ever trust my parents with these things again. So Pissed!!

Then another friend called me stupid because I needed her assignment but apparently it was too big to send by email. She wanted me to bring a USB to her house to get the file. So I asked her why can't you just save it on your usb and drop it from your apartment building down to my hands where I would be at the ground. It was 21 floors and she said "thats a dumb question". WELL I was just giving a suggestion. No need to call me dumb!!

Vectors ... - Saturday May 14, 2011

Man oh man, for those of you who took calculus and vectors and who were able to pass it. CONGRATULATIONS. I think I just might fail. All this 3D dimension stuff is making my brain go wack. It was all good with 2D stuff but when it comes to 3D, its just mind-boggling because you need to imagine it. Its really hard to draw it and so, your brain has to imagine up diagrams and you just have to be abstract. This vectors course in my opinion screens out whoever wants to be an engineer/architecture because I think they need to think very abstractly. For those who don't have any physics background, its just tough. Haha, I don't have any physics or will I ever get any physics knowledge because I don't like science period. Honestly for those who have done well in vectors is just a miracle especially for those who don't have physics background. I think my mark will drop from a 94 to a 0 at this rate because I don't understand a thing. Even though I am at night school and it should be traditionally easier, I am having a hard time grasping the concept. I wonder how my day school friends are doing. One of them got a 58 on their test and his mark dropped from 90's to 80's with just one test. Poor fella.

P.S. I hate you vectors, please don't haunt me!!!

Friday - Friday May 13, 2011

End of the week already but still my work aint finished. All the summatives are still coming along and also the exams. When will all of this end? All this all-nighter and all these studying haha. Im tired of this boring stuff!

Had to go to this doctor's appointment. The awesome thing was, he put this needle like thing and it started spraying water into my ear. It was so cool because this was felt like it was gonna punch through that small little piece of skin in your ear. Haha, don't really know the name of it but it felt awesome because after washing my ear. I felt like I can hear everything again. Too bad they only washed one ear and not the other. Im stuck with having one good ear and a not so good ear.

Today my parents made me go to this thing where you learn Chinese martial arts. Well not exactly fighting wise, but like how to breathe. Apparently there is different types of breathing and its supposed to make you live longer. I went there and honestly I was bored out of my mind because our master/teacher was playing a flute for 30 minutes straight and we had to stand there with our back straight and do some gesture. I was so bored that after the first few minutes I just started reading a nearby newspaper. I heard some people even fell asleep. BUT all was worth it because after we finished we went to Galleria and got half price sushi! Haha, I get all excited when food comes!

Allergies - Thursday May 12, 2011

Gahhh I hate you allergies. When allergies start coming, I know spring has actually arrived. My eyes get so watery and itchy because of this stupid allergic reaction to pollen. Why must you make my eyes so itchy. And also my ears are apparently the oily kind where its not rocks or hard pieces that stick in the ear. It’s the oily kind and when I wake up in the morning, my ear always feels like there is a bubble in it. Then I feel like I have a hearing loss because I can only use 1 ear to hear things. Thank god im going to the doctor to fix all this !!

What should I do? - Monday May 9, 2011

Lost in this open world. One lonely soul treks on this land. He's helpless and heartbroken. He is constantly reminded of that painful past and cannot move on because it lingers by. This feeling of hurt, pain, betrayal has scarred his life and he is helpless when it comes to love. His feelings have been bruised and tortured and he feels that love can never befall upon him because its never worked out for him. Neither will it be happening in the future. He has no looks, talent or even any skill that can attract girls. All he can give is his efforts and constant hardwork. When people put 1 hour of work into their projects, he would put 5. Its just a constant working working working and working for me. Although I try my best, I can never actually be the best. There is always some people that beats me and its really a total letdown. I try not to compare myself to these people but then, there is honestly no motivation for me to do anything now. Like what my parents say, im gonna end up as a hobo. I guess that's true, nothing works out no matter what I do so really I just want to give up. I dont trust love anymore because it has hurt me so much times

But at the same time, there is still small fire in me that really wants to get brighter and get bigger. But there is always this bucket of water that keeps drowning my fire. Sighhh what must I do to and what should I do... All I have ever wanted is to stay with the person that I have liked and to share good times with them. Honestly, I will give up everything for her but I guess things like this never happen.

After some thought, I think I will always hide my true feelings and never ever reveal them ever again because it has caused so much pain for me and for others. I don't want this pain to surround me anymore so I will promise myself to just keep looking forward and never ever show this weak side of me ever again! NO MORE WEAKLING. Im gonna grow and get stronger no matter what.

Fun Friday Night - Friday May 6, 2011

So, its already Friday and I had my fellowship session which was Guys Night Out. It was a fun program where all the guys hang out together and do some fun stuff or just stupid stuff.

BUT I ENJOYED every moment of it, from the beginning to all the goodbyes!! It was just happiness and funny!

So I was subwaying there when I met a friend going there as well. I decided to take the lazy mans way and go on ttc while he roller bladed for like 30 minutes. Poor boy but the problem was, his roller blades had no brakes. It was so funny because we were going down a steep downhill slope and he had LOTS of trouble going down. He had to run on the grass to slow himself because there was no other way to stop.

Then when we got there, there was piles and piles of bread and wieners. LIKE A BIG BIG PILE like over 80 wieners on a dish for like 20 guys. LOL. they expected each guy to eat 4 hot dogs. I could only eat 3 unfortunately and there were tons leftover. All of us tried to stuff ourselves because we didn't want to waste it and apparently we fell into the organizers trap. They had wanted us to eat food before playing their game because usually games were all about running and getting there first. With all our stomaches bulging with food, we were unable to run and so it was not a competition of strength but of the mind. We had to try and get the most points without moving much. The tasks for this game were just so ridiculous.

I shall list some:

Get a girl's phone number in their writing on a napkin

Take a picture of a Spanish man in a bumblee suit

Take a picture of what's inside the garbage can at McDonalds

Take a picture of a car that costs over $94,028

Write down the price of the most expensive package of cat food at Loblaws

They are just some but these tasks are so FUNNY and RANDOM.

It was so fun doing it too!

First Day of Work - Monday May 2, 2011

Today was officially my first day of employment. First-time getting a paid job yet all these interesting and challenging moments happened before me. Basically, I was skipping my school day for this first job because I was working for the Federal Elections as a registration officer. A government job with just barely any experience whatsoever! Though it was good experience, I was sacrificing a lot because before me I have 2 tests coming up within the week and summatives. In federal elections, I had to work for 13 hours non-stop and then come home all tired to face my homework.

Anyways I woke up early in the morning, I consider early because I usually wake up even later and leave my house at 7:45 to find myself end up at my polling area at 8:28am 2 minutes before I lost my job. Usually it would have taken 15 minutes to reach this area but I ended up getting lost and had to run around 2 blocks trying to find my area before deciding to stop at a local store and ask for directions. This stupidness almost cost me my job = $200 LOL. Thank god I ended up there.

There, the excitement started. We were all hyped up to welcome the voters as we opened up our station. It was silence for like 5 hours LMAO. like COMPLETE SILENCE. No one came, nothing happened and we were bored. Some dude decided to do push-ups and others began to dance. Funny because they were old men and women like ppl in their 60-70's... Weird bunch of ppl I suppose!

Then when rush hour began, people started to rush in. Then there was there was this noise that was humming and everyone started looking in that direction. It was some constant humm so no one could neglect it and apparently this lady was breastfeeding... like a machine that was taking the milk... I was like WHAT THA EFFF!?! LIKE IN A GOVERNMENT JOB!? WITH LIKE SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND!? She did it for 15 minutes straight before she had to go and take the machine off. There was such a long line of people waiting for her. It was so jokes too. Though the people waiting in line didn't know what the person was doing... but all of us workers knew what was happening. Then the table beside me with all old men and women started talking about all the benefits of mama's milk than artificial milk. I told them, I didn't need to know about this and they said, well, ur learning a lot from a government job so you should understand learn some more too. I was like......... wow. IM 17. I DO NOT NEED TO KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THIS.

But that wasn't it. As people came rushing in, there were all kinds of obnoxious and ridiculous people who just couldn't follow the government policy. Basically we needed some kind of identification that had a photo and an address which could not be the voters card. There were so many times where this dispute happened where they only brought a voters card or something that only showed a photo without any address. Thank god I didn't have to deal with this but the information officer had to. I was only at the sidelines watching and laughing. LOL.

Anyways, this lady had came and had this dispute and then said forget it, Im not doing this and just walked away. There was this old chinese dude who came and started yelling at our information officer who was caucasian in chinese and he was just baffled. Kept repeating, please take out ur identification while the other had no idea what he was saying. It was such a funny scene. At other times, there was these people who just started swearing at him. After they left unsatifisfied still, the information officer was like... why are they giving me attitude. Im just doing my job and Im getting yelled at so much. I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD!!!!!!!!!!!! Funny how there are so many people who don't read things properly and just get frustrated and unleash their anger on our poor fellow.

Anyways thats about it.!! GOOD EXPERIENCE!

but my tongue has got a blister from trying to get the food stuck in my mouth too much. It hurts so much right now!!!

Math Sucks - Saturday April 30, 2011

Man, I look at the calendar and its already May. Oh boy!!! Almost the end of school and stress haha. Anyways today was a long day of math or actually vectors. My dad had to leave on some business trip and so I would have to self-study everything. But there are always some questions that I don't really understand so I have devoted over 7 hours to learning all the course material before my test and doing the questions so that my dad can teach me before he leaves.

Anyways vectors is honestly such a hard concept to grasp because I'm not the type that can think so abstractly though it is gradually getting easier and easier for me. I still prefer more of an algebraic method of calculus way more though. Another thought that I had was what I would do in University level math. I am not sure if I have to take Calculus in University but I'm starting to worry haha. No wonder my teacher calls me a worry-fart, always worrying about things... but I'm just actually thinking ahead!!! NOT A WORRY FART!!! Such an insult.

Anyways another thing I found that I hate about my parents. They never really listen to anything they say and take back things really fast. Soo, I had gotten an electric toothbrush for my christmas present and I had treasured it. Then my mom says, why don't I let her use it because she's too cheap to buy another one. I am like WTH, you got me this as a present and now you want it back? Isn't it a little too late!? and soo you didn't really mean what you said before? She's like are you sure I gave this for your christmas present? I was just wowwww.. you must be kidding me. Like honestly they lose so much braincells LMAO.

So before when I wanted an electric toothbrush, my parents were totally against it because you can buy like 5 regular toothbrushes for an electric and it wasn't worth it. I was like it's alright since I want it and I really do use it. And now she wants to use an electric toothbrush because her co-workers tell her how electric toothbrushes are really really useful because it spins and it brushes off things that ur usual toothbrush can't do. She is so gullable LOL. so yea. Pissed at my mom AGAIN.

First Job - Thursday April 28, 2011

Today I woke up at 9:30 and I was proud because I was going to attend my first job training session today. Boy I felt good about skipping for once because it was for something useful! Turns out the training wasn't even that long. Just barely 20 minutes? but I received the position of Registration Officer for the Federal Elections. Even though its only for 1 day, I'm so happy because its my first paid job. I can actually get money from this and its not some boring volunteer work where I get volunteer hours. Its money. Though I honestly am not that interested in money because it just doesn't interest me although I'm going into finance. Oh well, I guess I'm different. And so I skipped school and my friends were wondering why I came to school and skipped the morning. Haha, I didn't tell them the reason because I just found no point.

After school was the university session for the AEO for University of Western Ontario. The first thing I saw was food and tons of good food! There was so many different kinds of cookie and they were so soft and chewy. I went there with an empty stomach and ended up being full afterwards. Boy I felt like I had my dinner there. The presentation was awesome! Like it made ivey so much better than the rest but I guess he exaggerated a little. But most of all, there were actually graduates of Ivey who have become parents and have taken their children to this AEO info session. That got me a little curious and interested. Anyways the food was SO GOOD!!! LOVED IT! and definitely Western looks like a good university where I can start a new life!!!

Pissed Again - Friday April 22, 2011

Although its good friday, a holiday when we can relax and rejuvenate from this stressful high school year. However it turns out I have to spend this great day with my parents. Honestly, I wonder why I even bother talking to them. Most of what they say is either complete nonsense or just CRAP, and only at very few times do their words actually have a meaning.

I had finally landed my first job at the federal elections. Guess what my parents say, they were angry because I had to skip school. In their minds, all they can think about is marks, marks and grades. If I skip school, my grades will drop and Im gonna miss an important class. What a load of crap, practically every student knows that skipping one day of class is not that big of a deal. Why do you have to make such a big commotion from such a small matter. They are so scared that my marks will drop and the universities won't accept me. I understand their concern but really, they go beyond looking after me but looking after every single thing I do. They say, at anytime universities can take back the offer because it is conditional... as if I don't know this, that is why im still working even though I have my offer.

Unfortunately I had missed a training day which was necessary for me to do my job. I completely forgot about this training when I got back home from school and I dozed off. They yelled at me for forgetting about this when they told me this job was bad because I was skipping. Why da hell do you have to scold me for everything I do. I took the initiative to find this job and now you scold me for this? I wonder why I even told you I applied to this job in the first place. So now that I have missed the training day, I thought I was doomed and so were my parents. However I had some hope that I could still maintain the job. My parents were like, there is no point in hoping because I have missed the training. I didn't care what they say and I went outside to go talk to the election people about my missed training. Turns out they have a lot of training days and I could reschedule it. I was happy. But when I proved my parents wrong, they don't say anything. Not even for giving me the wrong advice. Like seriously, can you guyz please admit your wrong? and that I am right?

I was really happy about this job but my parents aren't. I'm like I need this as job experience because when I applied to another job, they didn't even consider me because I had no job experience. My parents didn't believe me and they were doubting how much the job at federal elections can help me. At least I get paid work, and some experience. All they can say is, this isn't worth your time or effort. Just wow, you guyz are freaking dumb and just STUPID. YES YOU ARE SO STUPID like honestly the worst and most dumb parents I have known. You can't even remember how many summer schools I had applied to. This summer, I had applied to 2 summer schools because I wanted to increase my chances of getting a good mark in english since English is a necessary course for my Top 6. My parents believe that I had applied to 3 summer schools. Like seriously, I have told them so many times its 2 but they dont believe me... One day, When I prove them wrong, they will just say its been so long ago... and all that scolding about me taking 3 summer schools would be forgotten to them. What about me? Do they consider what I feel for getting scolded about this constantly?

Why are my parents SO FREAKING DUMB Like seriously, I find no point in explaining things to them anymore because they will just forget it.

Pissed at my parents? - Monday April 18, 2011

Why must I be born in this family of picky and such miserable parents. They are the most traditional kind of chinese parents that I have ever known and see before. I have honestly been scolded for literally everything I do. Like seriously, their excuses are endless and they are just so stubborn and the typical kinds of parents who compare ur child to other very successful childs but they don't ever compare me to some fail child out there.

Anyways im not just gonna fume about this but I want to emphasize on how pissed I am at my parents.

First off, we go watch TV and its chinese news... typical... but I tell my parents that I wanna watch something else and they tell me to watch it after they finish the news. By the way... this is when its supper time and we are eating. After the news is over and I am supposed to get to watch TV now, they tell me that now that we are done eating.. I should get back to work.. WHAT IS THIS!? LIKE SERIOUSLY!? DID U FORGET WHAT U HAD SAID BEFORE?

Secondly, Im like I want to watch TV. And also, my parents had put a passcode on all the channels so basically i can't even turn on the TV myself. Its like this parental block system where every channel requires the lock to view. They tell me if you want to watch TV, u can go watch it... Even though its a blank screen (aka not even turned on) its still considered watching tv right?? Im like if thats the case, next time we watch the news. why dont we do this as well? and they just dont say anything BUT STILL the result is, I dont even get to watch TV.

Thirdly, they go on and on about how they don't see me working and Im always fooling around. I am like OK, fine by me. U wanna see how much I work? Go and look at how many all-nighters I pull and my marks before u talk to me about how I don't work. Then they say, well your marks aren't real because your always copying other people's work. I'm like sure yea, if I do copy people works, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't do well at my tests where I CANT COPY people's work. They say maybe its a fluke then? Honestly, must u always find excuses for these things? CAN you honestly admit that your wrong for once? When I bring up my offer of admissions to universities, they say most of the admissions are due to the marks and since Im always cheating my way out of getting marks.. I shouldn't even use this as an argument... LIKE DUDE. they are so simpleminded that it feels like im talking to some stubborn 5 year old who won't bother listening to what I say.

No matter how many examples I give, they just keep finding ways to make them right.

Lastly, my parents are like, why don't you work harder so that you can give an impression that your a hardworking boy. Its as if Im not working in the first place... Then im like what exactly do I get if Im being this so called *good kid*. I want some freedom if I become one, and they answer, well not all good people get freedom. If you look at China, there are those people who have suffered from those toxic chemicals used to make the food there. The people who are suffering have decided to take it to court but instead, they have been punished for raising such a pointless issue (apparently china is that way and so...) Though these people are good, do they get any freedom? IM JUST FLABBERGHASTED. IM mad at such a profound excuse too.

thats why im moving away in unviersity. NO JOKES. AWAY FROM HOME, AWAY FROM TORONTO, AWAY FROM PARENTS.

Life is boring - April 14, 2011

Im so sleep nowadays.. maybe because I sleep so late! But really, I can't help it because when I try to sleep early, it feels like I still have energy left. Then I end up sleeping late again. This cycle will never end I guess...

Fell asleep first thing in the morning during my period 1 classes, my teacher had to wake me up and in that process he commented "too much late night porn surfing"? I was so embarassed... LIKE you cannot understand being said that in front of the whole class. With 30 pairs of eyes looking at u with some kind of annoyed look, but I was innocent too. Sigh... why do my teachers hate me so much. Every once in awhile, they find something to make fun of me.

Today, I finally met my big sister after 4 yrs (maybe more) of not seeing her. We talked so much and I just couldn't stop talking. It felt like it would never end until her netbook fell and her microphone and speakers died. I also had to start on my homework because it was 3AM already. She has converted me into a Western student and boy, I am looking forward to uni life. It will be one heck of a fun life experience that I will have because I will be taking a big risk. NO more boring old me and a new mature kid will be coming to CANADA but not toronto.

Must pull myself together. - Wednesday April 6, 2011

Wow, recently, I have lost so many things. My pencil case, my binder, my identity. I have been so lost these past months because I could never distinguish what I really wanted. What do I want to do with my life? Where do I wanna go? Where can I seek my happiness? These questions and many more have been flying around in my mind constantly making me pissed off. As a result, I have been skipping classes, making my friends worry and sadly being annoying.

Right now, I still cannot answer the question about what my goal in life would be. But I can answer one question about girls which I have been dwelling upon. I really don't know why but ever since I was little, I was such a shallow boy, always going for the looks. Really, looks mean nothing now and everything is about the heart. Although having the looks is a plus! because you always want to see an appealing girl. But I myself dont have the looks either, so I cant ask for much! But I have understand myself and really, I will only care about one thing. And it is the heart, no matter what one looks, their actions, their feelings and their inner self is what I will seek and what I will love. Sounds so corny haha.

Lost - Saturday April 2, 2011

I have just spent a 2 hr ride to arrive at Waterloo to do my AFMAA and turns out, I failed it epically. Literally, I had to make up so much stuff for my essays that its not funny. I was so lost when I read the question. I reread it and from there I tried brainstorming some ideas. However nothing came to my mind and I had to rely on my bsing skills which I must say is not the best in the world. Before the exam, I arrived in the room 40 minutes early and when I went inside, I needed to go pee but the person in charge wouldn't let me and so I had to hold it for around 3 hours. My bladder felt like bursting then.. because I was nervous cuz its an exam and to put it off, my pee was accumulating too... Good thing I could hold it in or it would have been an embarrassing sight. Lastly, I felt that I can't live in Waterloo because it is such a plain school. Everything looks so plain and nothing can "WOW" me... Like I really cannot believe I can spend 4 years of my life living in this campus. Its SO BORING.

After that I went to a friends birthday party and it was great. Had some fun and made some new friends.

After that, the bad news came. I dun't entirely remember what exactly happened but my parents started yelling at me for not taking care of my stuff properly. Honestly I have had enough of this constant yelling. I know they are the traditional kind of asian parents but they are like the super super left wing-ed parents who yell for every little thing that happens. But there yelling isnt the typical kind of yelling, its a really really hurtful kind of yelling... insulting me and bashing me with their thoughts. They don't even consider my feelings and when I argue back.. it just makes things worse. Why did I have to grow up in this kind of family, when I see others with their parents, they joke around and laugh. As for me, we can never have jokes because they always have their serious face on. No laughter in the house but just sadness. This is the NUMBER ONE reason why I want to leave. I just can't take this. Its too much for a young kid like me to endure this much and have to deal with schoolwork and university choices too.

I know that I have grown up in a poor family where every cent means something to us. We won't just give up a cent for nothing and we try and save every single penny because it would be useful in the days to come. I totally understand that and how we have become cheap asians. But its something I can live with. However, they always keep complain about my laziness. DUDE LIKE WTH. Im like working my butt off and all you can say is . WHY ARE U SO LAZY. This just drives me crazy.. when they see my marks they say, it should be expected to get a 90. just wow.. what is this. IM NOT A SMART ASIAN who can get ur marks dude. I need to work my butt off for this... Do u know how much time I spent studying? Do you?

Well Screw u parents. Im leaving this house after this last year.

AFMAA - Friday April 1, 2011

Its already April and just two months before my university life begins but before that summer comes first!

Out of the 5 universities, I have gotten 3 acceptances!!! So glad I got acceptance rather than having to stay another year at my old and boring high school. Its a new life, a new being is born in this world and thats ME!.

List of Unis: (From top choice to bottom)

Ivey Western (Acceptance received)

Queens Commerce (Pending)

Waterloo AFM (Pending and need to write AFMAA)

Laurier (Acceptance received)

York Schulich (Acceptance received)

Honestly, I still don't know where I wanna go as of today still. Im still a small child lost in this humongous world. And my AFMAA admission exam is coming up in 10 hours. Im so nervous that im shaking.. haha.

Life outside this is boring. Same old high school, same old friends, same old boring school work. But I think its getting along with talking with her. Shes so funny and I really like her attitude toward things. She fills up this special space within my heart and its fun talking to her!!!!

Time to get a grip - Saturday March 26, 2011

Yes.. its time to stop worrying about some worthless things and to step up my game. I have been sulking way too much and way too often and I need to change this habit. The feeling of failing and getting a rejection must GO AWAY. I need to rid this evil out of myself and change myself... for the better of course. From tomorrow on, its going to be a new me. A person who is not afraid to lose, not afraid to get embarassed and is a kind person who aims to never hurt himself or anyone either.

Also from tomorrow I gotta work work work because I have such a tight schedule ahead of my this week.

Monday: Calc Test, Financial Securities Test

Tuesday: blah blah

Wednesday: Econ Test, Accounting Quiz

Thursday: blah blah

Friday: blah blah

Saturday: AFMAA for Waterloo University Program

Gotta study and work hard for my future and for my own selfish good. Yea thats right, I'm gonna have the confidence to SHOUT TO THE WORLD! yea.. weird but Im not gonna let myself sit there and let people race ahead of me.!

Suzuka - Tuesday March 22, 2011

Dam, I get addicted to things so easily. I read 166 chapters of manga in 2 days time. But honestly it was so good that I couldn't stop myself. Suzuka... what a great manga. I really loved the storyline and hope that one day their story can become my story.

March Break End - Sunday March 20, 2011

As I enjoy my last few hours of march break or the last few hours before school starts... I ask myself.. what have I actually done during march break. Except for watching dramas and playing, I have practically got nothing done and so I am looking forward to school now, to get some learning done and to get better. But having March Break does have its good points because I actually feel so well-rested right now. I doubt I will be able to say that when school starts though. The upcoming all-nighters will certainly terrify me but I will take them on! (with coffee of course)

Finished watching Nodame Cantabile and honestly it is the best movie that I have watched. It put me in tears and put me in happiness throughout the story. Although it was short with only 4 episodes with 2 hours duration, I really loved it. Honestly, I loved the girl character, Nadame. She is so cute and her personality is so adorable. Man.... I wish my relationship could be like that. If only if only, and just seeing her, shes so cute with her japanese voice.

It also taught me a lot too. Firstly, I must always work hard because there will be times you can't (or something related to that. Gotta rewatch the last episode to catch what the character says again). The second one was how even though you tried your best achieving those results, you must continue to aim higher and not be too full of yourself.

Lastly I really want to aspire to be the male main character, a kind and handsome man.

March Break Part 3 - Saturday March 19, 2011

Wow... i wake up with a really really big and painful neck and have been experiencing neck pain ever since. It hurts to move my neck backwards... I guess that's what I get for sleeping so much... but still... i don't think i deserve neck pain for that.

Today... i just got hated on by my parents. Like totally... they keep yelling me at every single thing I do. Like about university.... they suddenly tell me that of the 5 universities that I had applied to... they will only pay for $6,000 for the tuition since that is the cost of the cheapest university aka York in their opinion. Im like wtf... what about the more expensive ones like the $13,000 ones like Queens or Western.... How am I going to pay for that? I guess I gotta start saving up because my parents won't do anything for me... such selfish and foolish people. The reason I intend to go for Queens or Western is because they are actually good schools although they are a little more expensive. If you don't pay more, how will you get a better education? but thats not what they think. They think its best to go by the cheapest ways. I would rather be in a big debt and be able to get a job than not even finding a job after graduating. Thats why, I have made up my mind and im aiming for those schools no matter what. No matter what they say, screw them, i aint listening to them ever again. They are so foolish and dumb, everything they say... even though I prove them wrong, they just say " you need to listen to us because your not a man". Im like SCREW OFF, Im 17, i can make my own decisions.... but still im trapped in their house and i gotta listen to their rules. I hate that... so I have to move out. FOR SURE.

Finished my previous manga and moving on to a new one. Suzuka!

I love their storylines... just gives me so much inspiration and motivation to be like them. To be a kind and caring boy like the main character.

March Break Part 3 - Friday March 18, 2011

Sigh... its nearing the end of march break already.. and im starting to miss it... but life goes on and now i must tackle the challenges that face me. Of course im not gonna give u without a fight. This march break... i have been thinking and thinking and really I need to muster some courage and have some confidence in myself... otherwise.. what will other people think of me.

I also read 126 chapters of Kimi no Iru Machi... (practically reading it for 1 day straight) but it was so good that I couldn't stop myself. This manga brought me such a good feeling because the main character is so kind and stuff. I really look up to him and admire him. He is my role model and I wanna be like him. It also renews my fighting spirit within me and now I wanna keep fighting it!

After that I went to fellowship for the first time and we played beach volleyball. Although it was indoors, it was fun and I gradually got better at it. Was able to actually serve and hit it. Im so proud hahaha. and now im all sandy and tired.

That's all for today!

March Break Part 2 - Wednesday March, 16, 2011

I find it great to finally have a break, where we can recuperate and think things through properly. Though I think I'm starting to fall behind in homework as I have been distracted watching dramas and movies. I just watched Unstoppable

It was rather exciting too. The whole movie was building up to a big big climax and boy it was great when its a good ending. I really hate bad endings. It sucks and make the watcher feel sad and down.

Today while I was having my haircut (*sigh* my mom cuts my hair.) My mom forced me to watch Nodame Cantabile because she wanted to watch it while she was cutting my hair. At first it was so boring because it was talking about music and of all things... classical music... the worst kind. However it got better and better because I was just focusing on the storyline.

Im also reading Good Ending (a pretty good manga)

March Break? YAY! - Saturday March 12, 2011

Glad that this break finally came. I have been waiting for you for so long. When I'm at school Im dreaming about you, when im sleeping im dreaming about you and when Im working up all night, im still dreaming about you. AND NOW, you finally came. Its like a miracle. no more school, no more early mornings, no more late nights, no more work, just fun and free time for one whole week. THANK THE HEAVENS for this day/week. Lastly, its time for me to catch up on all my work.

There is one thing that I must work on and that is confidence. Confidence to start talking to her and being friends with her. Confidence to even take a glance at her. Its this confidence that I lack when it concerns her. but at other times, my confidence is normal.

I still remember how I randomly asked her about a small bottle of holy water that I got from a friend. I didn't know what it was and had confronted her to ask about this water. She didn't have a clue what it was as well and asked if she could taste it. I was like sure and she poured a trinkle on her pinkie. Some of the water dropped to the ground but thats not surprising and she lightly put it to her mouth and tasted it. Then she said it was just normal water and it was the end. I was so happy at that time. Sigh. wish that moment still lasted.

My March Break resolution, to have the confidence to become friends with her!

Night before the Test - Tuesday March 1, 2011

Its already March. That is very surprising to me because in 3 months I will either be going into university or I will be staying for grade 13. Right now, I have so much things to do, my university applications, my day school work, my night school work, my online school work, my extra curriculars and lastly my relationship. I feel so lonely, yet I don't have the time to do anything about it.

Also I'm looking forward to march break because then I can finally rest and regenerate and think about the steps I should take.

I have a calculus test tomorrow yet I haven't started studying because I'm too busy finishing up the rest of my homework. To be honest, I don't really know why I am working so hard. I have 3 university marks in:

Advanced Function 94

Earth and Space Science 97

English 84

Calculus ???

The rest are around 90s.

So basically with these 4 courses which are a requirement for university for the top 6, I will only need 2 courses left. However I am taking 6 courses right now which are Financial Securities, Economics, Accounting, International Business, International Law, World Issues. I am worried and so I have dived myself into all this work to hide away from all this unhappiness, to forget about it and just work hard and hopefully be successful.

I had decided to drink because of this, because I am unsure of myself. I swear on my life, that I will not go overboard and do drugs or smoke because that is just ruidiculous.

Graduation = Hangover - Sunday February 27, 2011

Firstly, I must congratulate myself on winning my gold award for Duke of Edinburgh. I have finally graduated from this 3 yr long thing. It was very challenging and very helpful to be honest. LOVED IT!.

After our graduation, the gold celebrated with a sleepover. But a sleepover isn't a sleepover without something special eh? yes we were in the basement all bored and stuff and guess what, the drinks came and we soon drank a bunch and I began to feel tipsy. I felt so clumsy and I wanted more. Soon, I couldn't walk up the stairs properly and I couldn't even find the washrooom yet I wanted more. In the end, I drank beer, whiskey, vodka and soho. Everything tasted good with 7up except for beer. I dislike it. We even played beer games like flip the cup and beer pong. So fun especially when your on the losing team. You get to keep drinking and drinking. Of course, we had grown-up with me supervising. YAY for sleepover.